Things have been getting better, but there was a lot to go through in order to get where I am. And as I’ve said before I could not have done any of this without my wife at my side. One time in the hospital my wife was caring for me and my middle daughter was there – I look at her and said this is what true love is really all about.
Going through Chemo and radiation at the same time is rough, that’s what they told me – but I had no idea what that meant – they beat my body up so much that I didn’t know which way was up. Between the nausea from the chemo and the lose of taste and saliva and sore throat from radiation by body didn’t know what to do – and they both kick you with a case of the fatigues that you don’t want to do anything.
Even when the last radiation treatment was done – they said it will still be in you for a few more weeks. I remember ( or my wife tells me) many days I just stayed in bed.
But my wife wasn’t one to just let me fade away – no – she made sure I got up a little each day – she made sure my feeding tube was clean and running – even in the middle of the night when it would run out of food. There she was caring for me.
As I go a little stronger she would drive me to the park and take me on a walk – everyday for at least 10 mins – and if the weather was bad we would go to a mall and walk.
Friends for stop by, but I could stay up to really visit, so I would just excuse myself and go to bed. A few times my wife hade to get some men to stay with me while she went out to YW. The men all stayed but we never visited because I was always too tired.
But that was then – now I have very good days and some tired days. I don’t always take a nap during the day as I used to. I see a light at the end of this journey.
My doctor say I have at least a month more of fatigue before it gets better, but also added that it will be about a year till I’m feeling completing like I did before the cancer. For this reason I cancelled my bike order till next year. Plus I want to spend as much time with my wife and family as I can.
I still haven’t eaten any real food – I drink these shakes and special drinks – I’m suppose to be eating chicken noodle soup, but really haven’t. Next week I’m suppose to start a soft diet – poached eggs, French toast with lots of syrup, things like that. I hope that goes better.
I think of eating a lot and look forward to having some real food to chew on – It seems as though the sweet taste is back because I can taste the strawberry syrup in the milkshake and the vanilla. So that’s good. Water tastes good again. And I had some vegetable juice from our juicer – carrot, celery, peppers – and it was good and I could taste them. Today I even ate a piece of celery and red pepper.
Today 2 close friends (Tom and Kathy) stopped by and worked on my yard, weeding, cutting the grass and putting down mulch. That was so kind of them. They have been our side since the beginning –
In the beginning of this I made a commitment to finish the Book of Mormon by April 1. with the help of my wife reading to me everyday we were able to finish it before April 1, we were so happy. We are now ready D&C everyday (she reads I listen)
I want to thank everyone who has prayer and fasted and thought about me during this ordeal. I know that it is through the grace of God, the Priesthood blessings and the prayers of everyone that I am here today. I love you all!!!